Good music.
A beer.
A new adventure.
A dream.
Self motivation.
A new chapter.
A new chapter…
There’s a point in every story where the climax is almost reached and the story tends to lean in one conclusive direction, leaving the witnesses with a false sense of knowing what will come next or what the outcome may be. I am always one who predicts what will happen. I tend to usually be right, of course, when I am not. Okay, who am I kidding… I am usually never right.
If I had to draw my life out on a map, it would basically look like a two-year old went a little crazy with a marker. It’s all over the place and the “paint by numbers” section is nowhere close to what it was supposed to be. There’s black for white, and red for green. It’s not at all what I was told.
My life has been full of chapters that I have graciously ended and improved on. It has been full of climaxes and full of rock-bottoms. I have learned and I have failed, miserably, at times. Yet, here I stand. A smile on my face and new chapter in my life…
I have to say though, my last chapter is coming to a close and it has been the hardest one to close.
I fear as though this will be the start of chapters being hard to close.
My job as a mom to young, I want you to hold me young minions, is almost at its climax and I am having to put those years behind me. It’s the place: “I’m 31 and I am done having children”, it’s a bitter-sweet place…
It’s a bitter, bitter… sweet place…
Like for example: Now that my youngest is potty trained, I will no longer have to change any more diapers. Ever. EVER! Then it’s the realization that “I will never change my babies diaper again”.
It’s the sad SAD realization that my babies will no longer be that small again… bitter sweet.
* yeah, yeah, I hear you mom and dad saying: “This girl is RETARDED!” (you say it like Carlos Mencia does) “I would be stoked to never change a diaper ever, ever, ever, again!”
Yes, I hear you, but I aint talking to you! I’m talking to the future you. The future you when you come to my same cross roads…
BUT WAIT!!!!
Exciting things come after you close a chapter, willing or not.
New things can begin, new dreams come alive!
I am looking forward to this new chapter. Even though I am not ready for the craziness that comes with two little lady killers, I am up for the challenge. There is bound to be a couple “Mom doesn’t like that girl…” moments and you best bet that I’ll have my shot-gun ready. I’ll have my shot-gun in one hand and a spatula in the other… pretty much.
So, HERE’S TO CLOSING CHAPTERS WE MAY NOT BE READY TO CLOSE TO ALLOW US TO HAVE NEW DREAMS COME ALIVE.
I have dreams other than just being a super awesome mom, we should all have them. Yes, I may have cleaned up toys, washed soccer and MMA uniforms, answered a billion “why” questions, kissed another booboo, pretended to go to the moon, pretended to be a monkey who went to the moon, colored I don’t know how many Lightening McQueen cars, read the same story with ‘Scout The Dog’ and a number of other things I do automatically like some mom zombie… But that doesn’t mean I can’t have other dreams. I can be the best mom, and totally rock at other things too.
I’ve learned that just because one chapter closes, doesn’t mean it’s the end of me. I’ve taken the opportunity from my kids getting older and applied it to something for me. So, for the last year I have been working on building my business Ohana Sweet Treats. {thus the lack of me being here}
My dream is finally {slowly} becoming a reality. I couldn’t have closed the “baby” chapter unless I had started my new one.
A blank canvas now becomes a dream. MY dream now becomes my vision. A vision becomes reality.
I am focusing on maintaining my passion and my goal to be a better mom, daily. I am proud to say that you can follow my business on FACEBOOK or INSTAGRAM and you can find my “behind the scene” blog here! I am back bitches!!!!!
Every Day In April 
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