The day of my wedding, 8 years ago, I was anxiously
awaiting for that notorious last question… you know the one:
“Do you really
want to go through with
this?”
…well, when I never was asked that question from anyone around me
that day, I decided I would ask myself this famous question. It
was a huge decision I was about to make and I wanted to make
sure I was being honest to myself.
“April, are you ready to do
this? Do you think you are too young? Am I just
being naive? Are you just chasing a childhood
fantasy? Is it just something I was doing because that’s what
society makes you believe is the next step in a relationship? Do
you really want to spend the rest of your life with
this guy?”
My reply
was a bit different then what I had anticipated.
“Yes…. I think that 21 is a
bit young to get married. Annnd who am I kidding? I’ve
always been a bit naïve, especially about love. I really am
chasing a fantasy! But, what’s wrong with that? The only thing
I feel, is that I am owning my decision to get married. I am not
putting that idea of pressure from society on MY life
decision. I shall hold myself accountable for my own promises.
I don’t dare take this day
lightly.”
I didn’t have
to convince myself that what I was doing was the right thing.
I wanted nothing more than to go through with it and
after that, I didn’t think twice. I’ve learned that marriage,
your relationship, it should be a fantasy. It
should be everything you dreamt of and more. I know
for me, deep down, it is everything I ever dreamt of
and more. But, don’t get me wrong, it’s not an easy fantasy. It is
no secret that marriage is not easy and it’s not always sex, roses,
breakfast in bed and a partner who will gladly clean up your puke
when you’ve drank too much. It can be very shy of a “fairytale”
more often than not. It’s the challenge you accepted when you said
those “I do’s”. A challenge, indeed! My heart stood still the
moment I read my vows to my husband 8 years ago today. The
unknowing of what our future would hold was exciting and I was
ready to face whatever with him by my side. I have to say, I’m
pretty lucky. Don’t be jealous… well okay, you should be 😉 Happy
Anniversary to my man! A man who I loved then and continue to love
the man you have become. Every day with you is an adventure. Thanks
for taking the ride at 170° with me. 
Every Day In April 
You said it!